Monday, 28 February 2011

18th birthday

18th birthday
the morning after my 18th birthday. the last time i wore and will wear your t-shirt. 18 is a strange age. i'm happy again. how strange.

ziad ghanem a/w 2011 show











i've never really appreciated fashion in this way before. the show go me so excited that i shot a whole roll of black and white film. i'd love to go to more shows, maybe i'll see if i can be a dresser and work backstage next fashion week.

Tuesday, 8 February 2011


i'm so tired of feeling horrible and fucking things up and being told that i'm on a downwards spiral for drinking a cup of coffee. i just want to move out and live with friends and september couldn't come sooner. this is meant to be the happiest time of my life and love is meant to be this big great thing that makes everything amazing and it was for a while and now it's fucked up my life and i wish i'd never met him. if you don't know what it feels like to be very happy then you will never miss it. i was never unhappy before, but all of a sudden i am now. and i like to joke about selling his clothes on ebay (which i will probably do because i need money) but really i just want someone to come over my house and cook for me and look after me and do my projects for my course because i'm failing and i've never failed anything before and i'm really scared. i don't know what i want any more and i'm meant to be making these big decisions about my life but really i don't have a clue and i probably won't get in to the unis i want to go to and i will end up working in mcdonalds (not that there is anything wrong with that, it's just not what i want to do with my life) or taking portraits of jeremy kyle or something really weird like that. maybe that will be nice. someone do my work for me please.

Monday, 7 February 2011

summer cravings

sarah jones and anna denton

i really, really miss the summer.

Thursday, 3 February 2011

summer summer summer

i assumed that after three months i would be happy again.

fish in wales











elle came to visit for the weekend. we had the intentions of going to the beach to skinny dip for her video but everybody was really lame and flaked out. instead we went to without a doubt one of the best house parties i've ever been to, although i remember so little it could possibly have been terrible, but we will never know.

also happy 18th to alex and apologies to his dad whom i accidentally spanked.

ps, the blog title is meant to be some sort of amusing pun on the term 'fish out of water', sorry.